Don’t even think about saying letting out anger and sadness and fear is good. It’s not, it makes everything worse. (At least for me)

So tired….

so very very tired….

but I need to keep drawing.. I’m not a failure.…

I’m…not a failure..

Nothing I’ll say will make anyone feel better. I can’t comfort you. I can’t comfort anyone. I’ll just make everything worse, all I do is make everything worse! I’m never gonna make anything better I’m just gonna make everything worse.

God I want to cut myself. I just want to slit my wrists and everything go away. I can’t make anyone feel better I’m gonna die alone and If everyone cheers I don’t blame them cuz all I am is the embodiment of my mother

A shitty terrible person that only cares about herself and can’t learn to comfort people and world and my family would be happy if me and my mother would just drop dead! All I am is terrible and shitty and all I’ll do is make everything worse!!!

God! Why can’t this dumb book actually give me a good prompt? These prompts are pointless! It asks about “what’s important to you?” “What’s the first thing that comes to your head?” “What’s your job like?” “Where have you been going recently?” “What exciting thing happened?” “What reminds you of a song?” “What wakes you up?” MY FUCKING ALARM CLOCK OF COURSE!!! when will this damn book give me a prompt that I can actually LITERALLY draw?!

I hate myself, I hate my art, and I hate this fucking planet! What’s the point of creating if nobody gives a shit about it! Nobody cares if you finish something! Nobody cares if you make a joke! And nobody cares if your going through a rough time! BECAUSE EVERYBODY FUCKING IGNORES YOU!!!!!! My art sucks!! No one’s ever gonna love my art!! And no one will ever understand my emotions!! If I ever spilled my emotions on any of my usual sites everyone would either ignore, see me as manipulative, or just feel pity for me!! I just want someone to cut me open and get rid of this fucking darkness!!! I fucking hate myself!! I really really hate myself!!!! And I especially hate everyone that ignores me!!!!!!!!!

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